Why Am I forgivable (and who I forgive)

NOTE: Please do not go attack the user(s) that I'll be mentioning here, this is basically an answer for all of the people that question why do I forgive that specific person on DA and an answer why am i so nice to the people that is nice to me, so let get this over with

The curse of being nice
I don't know how this even possible, Whenever that I have an argument to an old friend of mine and they treated me like shit, for some reason I always have the courage to forgive that person insults despite how much headache that they did to me.
To be honest, I don't know how this possible when I was young, I used to be a dick to everyone that I met, (throwing shoes, cussing at loud and etc.) and it kinda strange even as in today that I did a 100 to -1 very quickly in just a couple of years.
Whenever I have an argument, let say  as a example (plus she need more love lol) and she have said some unneeded word and insult where I tried to be cooperative to her and then I block her. Somehow I knew that in a few month, I'm willing to forgive her if she willing to cooperate with me as a mature and calm human, and just like that we're friend again
This process happens to almost every user that I'm currently watching right now.
Truth be told, I don't even know why I acted this way even though they treated me like shit 24/7, I guess I'm either lonely and I don't wanna lose a friend, or I just feel sorry for them and I just wanna help them out.
It just....happened.

who am I forgiving
I'll be forgiving two people, because of these two people, even though they have given me some bad memories, but all I can remember (at the moments) is nothing but good memories and I'll be saying why am I forgive these two.

: Even though that you tell me to kill myself and to get Aids and etc, I am willing to forgive you. Why? Because of the memories that I remember, I remember that when I see your artwork, I was in love with your style, I watches you so I can see more and I can see more of you speaking your opinion, I still remember that despite that you already in a relationship, you still loved me even when I say "let's stay friend" I still remember that good time when we RPs on Note, when you force me to make MapleStory for you, including all of the Dicks jokes too. I have a good time talking to you and you help me be more active on DA more than ever.
Even when you treated me like shit, telling to go and kill myself, I still miss you. I miss talking to you, I miss RPing with you, I miss all of that.
If you willing to forgive me as well, Note me and let talk again.
if not, then you can block me by going to Setting --> Personal: General --> Blocked list, and type my DA user and block me
or just harass me, either way, I hope that you can forgive me and we can be at least friend.

: Now I know that we have our fair share, and tbh I acted like a dick to you, but I hope you realize that I was trying to help you. I was sick and tired of having a friend who says "I don't know what to do" and "I need help" but doesn't need any help when someone tried to help you. I was just trying to show you that not every day, everyone has to care about you and your life since everybody life is just as hard as yours, or hell maybe even harder.
I was just so tired of people on DA including my friend always acted like this way like they really don't know what to do, where they haven't even done anything and basically acting like an attention whore.
And for that, I'm sorry that I treated you like shit, and I hope somewhere in your heart that you can forgive me just as much I forgive you.
I just wanted you to know the truth about the reality, but it seems that I was pressuring you instead. 
Overall, I'm sorry for what I did, and I hope you'll forgive me as I already forgive you.

In conclustion
Even though that I said all of this, You guys should know that even I have a fair share of anger. Even on this journal, I have been nice but if I see anything that pissed me off, I will point it off, and I will be honest about it. I'm only human about it.
But I willing to try to act like a mature adult and be more cooperative, but you have to do the same. No question ask.
Overall, to Mistress and Maria. I'm sorry of what I say and did, and I hope that you guys will forgive me as much I forgive you, two girls.
and if you guys wondering why I forgive you guys so easily because... I miss you guys. I miss talking to you two.
If you miss me and wanna talk to me, note/skype me if not, block me.
Tbh, I wouldn't blame you if you block me.